Today is Sunday for me. I think it will probably say it is early Sunday morning on my post, but it is actually Sunday evening.
Well, things are a little weird and sad for me right now. I just feel a little down. I don't really know how to explain it and I would rather not think about it, so I'll move on to something else.
I was invited by Justin and Sarah to go look at some delightful fall colors with a member from the branch. I am excited. I like doing things like this. I am very good at staring out of car windows. Being a passenger in a car is one of my most favorite things. Without the responsibility of navigating and keeping the car on the correct side of the road and keeping everyone in the car safe, my mind is free to meander. I can be quiet for hours in a car, just thinking and staring. It always feels very nice. So tomorrow should be good. I am getting more comfortable with Justin and Sarah which means that I feel more comfortable to just be quiet with them. I hope it doesn't weird them out or anything; I don't think it does. Anyway, I am glad to be included in this adventure and glad to have met such neat people.
I am going to South Korea on Sunday. I will be there until Tuesday. I have mixed feelings about it. It will be neat to see a big city, I've been in the countryside for a while and I miss the movement of a bigger city. But I'm kind of nervous to be going alone. And I'm nervous about coming back to Japan. But I don't really want to talk about the details of that either. I just can't wait for it to be over and I just hope that everything goes smoothly and that I can somewhat enjoy myself for a little while. I'm going to look into some Korea things so that I can make the most of the situation.
I've been crying a lot. Some frustration tears, but a lot of deep pit of the stomach sadness. Maybe this will leave soon and I will be left with only happy things and bright sunshine in my stomach instead.
